This is me....I am sorry

Underneath the sky we sleep
The sunlight in my eyes keeps me from seeing clearly
Deep beneath the stars im lost
The darkness in my heart keeps me from letting go
Of everything I fear the most

And now I'm alone
And I'm ashamed
Hold me in your arms
And now I'm sorry for what I've done

Tied around the mess I've made
The air I breathe much harder
Everytime I speak
The words you've heard a thousand times
Ive tried before but now i feel like letting go
Of everything that hurts the most

And now I'm alone
And I'm ashamed
Hold me in your arms
And now I'm sorry for what I've done

And after all is said and done
You pick me up no matter where i fall
( No matter where i fall)
You hold me in your arms
Forgive me when I'm wrong

And now I'm alone
And I'm ashamed
Hold me in your arms
And now I'm sorry for what I've done

And now I'm alone
And I'm ashamed
Hold me in your arms
And now I'm sorry for what I've done

This song speaks the cry in my heart. Listen to it. I am alone and ashamed of what I have done. Rescue me....

Hell is upon me

My hell has come for me
I am going to barely survive the next few days
Lord, strengthen me, refresh me, humble me
I pray for perseverance, humility, fortitude
Help me
Love me
Rescue is coming....

Let the ending begin

Today is the beginning of an end
After this week, I will move on
Half way done with this period of my life,
Half way to the unknown and unaware

I am alone here

Where are they all gone to?
Why am I sitting in this room,
Empty and silent, dripping and vacant
They are happy together in their place
Why must I sit here, watching, desiring, begging

This is a new start

My history is before me
That which I once was has become a shadow
Grace defines the very threads of my soul
My future is one of joy through turmoil
My Lord will guide and embrace